It was an hour before noon when I woke up. Waking up for me is an annoyance more often than not. Mostly due to the fact that I tend to wake up suddenly. You know, the one where you just open your eyes in an instant and bolt upright, leaving you dazed and confused.
Remembering the stuff I had to do today, I rubbed the sleepiness off my eyes. I ate lunch (well, breakfast for me) in a hurry in fear of my mom having a change of heart in letting me go out today. Seriously, if you knew her, you would just bolt outside the door. She changes her mind faster than I change crushes and that is saying a lot.
I’m going out with the squad today to shoot a vlog we had to make for our major (meh), P.E class. Mind you, I’m an accountancy student. You did see the sarcasm dripping off from the word major, didn’t you?
Such requirements are a blessing in disguise really. They give us the opportunity to hang out despite our busy lives. God knows I have miss them dearly. It HAS been a while since I last saw them. Especially with the pandemic still raging in the world.
As usual, someone was always incredibly early and fashionably late. A typical event in a squad gathering. Can’t say I’m surprised honestly.
The sun was high in the sky but the winds were kind enough to grace us with its presence. The shooting went on quite smoothly if I must say. Even had a walk which was very refreshing for the spirit.
Fun fact: Our squad’s official food is pizza.
Someone’s birthday? Pizza. Won in a contest? Pizza. Dean’s Lister? Pizza. Everyone has spare money? Pizza.
It’s almost endearing. But we’re thrifty people. Pizza is cheap in some of our stores. 300 pesos and you already got 3 boxes. We can all share slices and everyone will walk away with full stomachs. Of course, there is always this incident where we get all shy over the last slice and we would just occasionally stare at it until one would call us out eventually.
I laughed quietly, a nostalgic look plastered on my face. I think it’s nearly 6 pm. The sun was almost setting. A yellowish orange hue mingling with the blue sky. The wind was still present, making the atmosphere light. Children running around in the plaza, happiness radiating off of them that makes us smile.
I stared as the leaves on the branches of trees danced. The chatter of my friends softly became background noise. They’ve always wondered why I get quiet when I’m with them. It’s because I instill these moments in my mind. Have thoughts to ponder.
I’ve always wondered why I felt hooked to them and why I chose to stay. Always admired their ability to laugh in the most absurd little things and how their spirits seem so light. So vibrant. As opposed to me who walks with a dark cloud above my head. I worried that they might shut me out one of these days but they never tire of me. How could they do that?
Do I even deserve them? What should I do to not ruin this? Am I really a part of them now? Do they like my presence too? Are they as happy as I am to be with them? Sometimes, I could never tell.
But ever since I decided to be with them, I’ve noticed that I, too, have become lighter. I learned how to be quiet and keep myself calm. My moods were not constantly shifting as they were before. I’ve become a better person thanks to them and that is a debt I owe to them and to myself.
Sitting on a stone bench, I’ve noticed the chatter has died down. A deafening silence ensued except for the wind and the gentle rustle of leaves. It is not an awkward silence but a pleasing one. It feels almost right.
At that moment, I truly felt contented. Savoring their presence.
The world blurred as everything was right. In my head, I mused that I could live like this.
And as I gazed at them as they resumed chatting and laughing, I knew they were one of the best decisions I have ever made.
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